Ohhh my dear friends. Long time no talk. I figured it was about time I give a little update as to where the heck I’ve been.
It’s the strangest thing even to me, but a few weeks ago (and what felt like overnight), blogging just seemed to shift from being a really natural and enjoyable part of my everyday life to this big awkward puzzle piece with no perfect fit. I think it probably comes down to the fact that I’ve been devoting quite a bit more time to school this semester. And with those extra hours displaced, time spent blogging was starting to mean time not spent FaceTiming with my parents, not eating lunch with my friends, not watching The Office with Josh, not sleeping, or – somewhat ironically – not cooking or exercising as much.
And while I’m sure I could have squeezed it in somewhere, I loved just about every minute spent writing every post I published since the blog was birthed 10 months ago. So it was pretty crystal clear to me the minute things started feeling off-kilter that it wasn’t feeling the way it could or should.
Although I must say, the last few weeks have felt pretty darn weird too. I can’t count the number of times I’ve found myself eating something delicious and thinking “I HAVE to share this!”. There have also been a fair share of moments of feeling like this significant chunk of my identity got ripped away and a sense of uncertainty as to where that leaves me exactly. Have you ever felt that way? And lastly, it’s hard not to feel like taking a break isn’t somewhat of a failure. As if I can’t stick to things, you know?
But you know what I’ve realized? I’ve realized what a crazy beautiful thing it is that we get to test new waters and experiment with unfamiliar things and try things on as we please. How cool is it that we can wake up any given morning and say, “I think I’ll take up sewing today” or “maybe it’s time I try out power-lifting”? And how silly would it be to deprive ourselves of trying these things in fear of not adopting them as lifelong passions?
Blogging is something that has brought me so much joy and that I suspect I will come back to one day. But it’s not fit for this season and I’m at peace with that.
Finally, I wanted to share that what I’ve learned from the experience more than anything is that people are SO SUPPORTIVE AND AWESOME. The people I’m closest to were pretty much a blog cheerleading squad. Many classmates regularly took time to approach me and say they enjoyed reading, which always made my day. And every comment left on here made my heart swell up so big – I feel like I’ve become friends with a lot of you which is so cool! And if the realization that people are rooting for each other isn’t an empowering one, I don’t know what is.
So with that, thank you so so much for reading and perhaps I’ll be back to this space with a vengeance one day. But in the meantime, here’s to eating lots of yummy things and soaking up all the goodness around us. There is so much of it! xoxoxo